tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-89160894157697977202012-02-16T07:41:39.425-08:00Pro-Ana blog, taking steps towards being healthy again. NOT a RECOVERY site. NOT ENCOURAGING ANOREXIA OR ED's. Trying to help those who do suffer stay alive, because no one CARES how SKINNY you are if you are DEAD! Thinspiration, Reverse thinspinration, Tips, Tricks, Daily Logs, Ect.xanababesxhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17380928864946064173noreply@blogger.comBlogger61100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8916089415769797720.post-25438510535305448642008-01-01T20:41:00.000-08:002008-01-03T16:56:34.285-08:00New Years Day...<br /><br />Time to start out some resolutions.<br />Today I'm going to take a day apart from my ed and just think...<br />Spend time with friends and family.<br />Eat what I want or don't want to, guilt free, and just be happy.<br /><br />No thinspiration tonight.<br />Only resolutions.<br /><br />Resolutions:<br /><br />-<span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">I will</span> be beautiful, inside and out.<br />-<span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">I will</span> take care of my body.<br />-<span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">I will</span> not allow anything enter nor exit my body that shouldn't.<br />-<span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">I will</span> be healthy.<br />-<span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">I will</span> be strong.<br />-<span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">I will</span> have less stress mentally and physically.<br />-<span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">I</span><span style="font-weight: bold;"><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"> will</span></span> learn to love myself, and let others love me in return.<br />-<span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">I will</span> have success in school.<br />-<span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">I will</span> get a job that I love.<br />-<span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">I will</span> get organized and stay that way.<br />-<span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">I will</span><span style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);"> </span>be happy and at peace with myself and the world around me.<br /><br />Above all... <span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">I will</span> do this all, one step at a time, and <span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">I will<span style="font-weight: bold;"> </span></span>succeed.<br /><br />Goodnight<br /><br /><3<br />Ana.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8916089415769797720-2543851053530544864?l=xanababesx.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>xanababesxhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17380928864946064173noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8916089415769797720.post-2487839926700115622007-12-31T14:11:00.000-08:002008-01-02T21:12:09.863-08:00New years YAY!!!<br />Alcohol has TONS of CALS though.<br /><br />1 packet green tea hp in ice water- 8 CALS 8:15AM<br />2 gummie vitamins- 20 CALS 8:15AM<br /><br />Total so far- 28 CALS.<br /><br />WOAH!!!<br /><br />Don't remember what happened....<br /><br />Tonights thinspiration video:<br /><object width="425" height="355"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/Sb8Kwoq-5h4&rel=1"></param><param name="wmode" value="transparent"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/Sb8Kwoq-5h4&rel=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" width="425" height="355"></embed></object><br />Goodnight<br /><br /><3<br />Ana.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8916089415769797720-248783992670011562?l=xanababesx.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>xanababesxhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17380928864946064173noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8916089415769797720.post-39371597169281263612007-12-30T12:04:00.000-08:002007-12-31T13:36:08.579-08:001 raw apple- 65 CALS 1:07PM<br />2 gummie vitamins- 20 CALS 1:38PM<br />2 oz. canned chicken breast- 60 CALS 2:15PM<br />7 live active cheese cubes- 110 CALS 2:50PM<br />1 packet green tea hp in ice water- 8 CALS 2:58PM<br /><br />Total so far- 263 CALS<br /><br />I don't feel like doing anything.<br />It's 6:57PM and I haven't done anything all day.<br />I don't feel like eating anything either.<br />:/<br />I don't even feel like writing.<br />*Sigh*<br />Hopefully I find some motivation here soon.<br /><br />And you know whats pathetic??<br />I'm looking forward to tomorrow cuz its only 200.<br />Pathetic.<br />Completely :/!!<br /><br />Fuck me...<br />800 CALS...<br />It's 12:24AM<br />I'm at 263 still...<br />And theres no way I'm eating this late.<br />So...<br />Considering a 2/4/6 diet...<br /><br />Total for the day- 263 CALS<br />Exercise for the day- NONE.<br /><br />Had about 6 bottles of water though [: !!<br /><br />Tonights thinspiration video:<br /><object width="425" height="355"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/tG082D0pfQc&rel=1"></param><param name="wmode" value="transparent"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/tG082D0pfQc&rel=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" width="425" height="355"></embed></object><br />Goodnight<br /><br /><3 <br />Ana<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8916089415769797720-3937159716928126361?l=xanababesx.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>xanababesxhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17380928864946064173noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8916089415769797720.post-35362506240918818352007-12-29T18:44:00.000-08:002007-12-30T14:39:47.427-08:002.5 oz canned tuna- 75 CALS 7:55AM<br />7 live active cheese cubes- 110 CALS 8:15AM<br />1 packet green tea hp in ice water 8:55AM<br />1 fruit roll up- 50 CALS 12:45PM<br />1 tlc kashi bar, peanut- 140 CALS 5:34PM<br /><br />Total so far- 383 CALS<br />Exercise so far- 700 CALS burned on DDR workout mode.<br /><br />This is turning out harder than I thought it would be.<br />No one said it was easy.<br />But damn, I feel like my stomach is going to burst!!<br />And I still have 217 CALS to go. ]: !!<br />Its already 7:53PM and I hate eating late ]: !!<br /><br />I had about 6 bottles of water so far today though.<br />Improving on that [: .<br />I think I'm going to start taking more vitamins too.<br />Or at least something sufficient for my age.<br />I'm 18 by the way.<br /><br />Does anyone know what to do about stretch marks and loose skin??<br />I can't afford surgery, and it looks terrible ]: !!<br />Slightly random I realize that, thanks.<br />Browsing around in my kitchen right now.<br />Trying to find something I might be able to make myself eat.<br /><br />Food disgusts me.<br />Talking to a friend.<br />Afterward off to exercise more and I WILL finish of my CALS.<br />Will finish writing later.<br /><br />1 english muffin- 140 CALS 9:17PM<br />1.5 tbsp strawberry jam- 75 CALS 9:17PM<br /><br />Total for the day- 598 CALS<br />Exercise for the day- 700 CALS burned on DDR workout mode.<br /><br />Eating my muffin now.<br />This sucks.<br /><br />1:51AM- My friends show up at my apartment with beer to party.<br />I felt like being by myself tonight and going to bed early.<br />So here I am, in my room alone, while 30 people trash my apartment.<br />The apartment i just spent 3 days cleaning.<br />*Sigh*<br />I'm such a pushover, I should have just told them to go to hell.<br /><br />I forgot to finish off the night last night.<br />All I did though was have a bottle of water and go to sleep.<br />Today I need to start doing my crunches again and stretch.<br />Plus more WATER.<br /><br />Tonights thinspiration video:<br /><object width="425" height="355"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/hiKv0AjTJNA&rel=1"></param><param name="wmode" value="transparent"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/hiKv0AjTJNA&rel=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" width="425" height="355"></embed></object><br />Goodnight.<br /><br /><3<br />Ana.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8916089415769797720-3536250624091881835?l=xanababesx.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>xanababesxhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17380928864946064173noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8916089415769797720.post-8438571968987982722007-12-29T18:09:00.001-08:002007-12-29T18:09:57.499-08:002 gummie vitamins- 20 CALS 10:32AM<br />1 piece wheat toast- 70 CALS 2:02PM<br />1 tbsp strawberry jam- 50 CALS 2:02PM<br />2.5 oz canned tuna- 75 CALS 5:39PM<br />1 can tomatoe soup- 120 CALS 5:53PM<br />1 raw apple- 65 CALS 6:14PM<br />1 live active cheese cube- 15 CALS<br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">Total for the day- 400 CALS<br />Excercise for the day- 500 CALS burned on DDR on workout mode.<br />(Dance Dance Revolution- Try it!!)<br />100 crunches.<br />30 lunges.<br />5 min wall sit.<br />2 hrs of cleaning.<br /><br />I really need to drink more water, only 4 bottles ]: !!<br />I also forgot my green tea HP.<br />I'm still getting headaches from not drinking enough water.<br />Back to the IB Profin, so bad I'm taking it daily.<br />You know whats sad, I had trouble getting in the 400 CALS.<br />I felt like i was going to puke all day, it just didn't wanna fit.<br />I've thought about eating higher calorie foods so I don't have to eat as much.<br />But I can't make myself put that crap in my mouth, sadly, I'm afraid to.<br />If I barely made it to 400 I wonder how tomorrow will go, or even 800!!<br />I might have to switch to a 1/2/3/4 diet.<br />Then again if normal people can shove 2,000+ calories down their throats...<br />Why cant I do this??<br />I burned enough calories alone playing DDR to be at -100 for the day.<br />But I still feel guilty putting that food in my mouth.<br />I used to have trouble keeping food out of my mouth.<br />Now I have trouble getting it in.<br /><br />Tonights thinspiration video:<br /><object height="355" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/7nKZxRPp2U4&amp;rel=1"><param name="wmode" value="transparent"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/7nKZxRPp2U4&amp;rel=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" height="355" width="425"></embed></object><br />Goodnight.<br /><br /><3<br />Ana.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8916089415769797720-843857196898798272?l=xanababesx.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>xanababesxhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17380928864946064173noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8916089415769797720.post-71506505920384592492007-12-29T18:02:00.001-08:002007-12-29T18:02:55.247-08:00<span style="font-family:arial;">2 gummie vitamins- 20 CALS 8:15AM<br />1 live active cheese stick- 80 CALS 2:23PM<br />1 packet green tea hp in ice water- 8 CALS 6:04 PM<br /></span><span style="font-family:arial;">1 live active cheese stick- 80 CALS 7:21PM<br /><br />Total so far- 188 CALS<br />Exercise so far- NONE<br /><br />I'm too tired and hungry to work out today.<br />I stayed active all day though, bleached my entire apartment.<br />Scrubbed my walls and floors.<br />Re arranged my room.<br />Cleaned my kitchen.<br />Re arranged my medicine cabinets.<br />Cleaned from noon to 10:35PM.<br />Guess I lost track of time...<br /><br />Total for the day- 188 CALS<br />Excercise for the day- NONE<br /><br />Final thoughts for the day- Only 2 bottles of water ]: !!<br />On second thought, I'm going to drink one before I go to sleep.<br />So make that 3 bottles of water /: !!<br />I need to get some rest but I'm not tired.<br />I'll take a turkey pill, and an IB Profin for my headache.<br />More water tomorrow along with exercise and a shower!!<br /><br />Tonights thinspiration video:<br /><object height="355" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/GYhwWxjbQnk&amp;rel=1"><param name="wmode" value="transparent"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/GYhwWxjbQnk&amp;rel=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" height="355" width="425"></embed></object><br />Goodnight.<br /><br /><3<br />Ana.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8916089415769797720-7150650592038459249?l=xanababesx.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>xanababesxhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17380928864946064173noreply@blogger.com0